Are you afraid of the dark?

So I have this funny habit. I've had it since I was very little and I am quite sure it will get me into trouble with my own children some day. Its a habit that my mom learned to describe very early so my little child brain could understand. I am a telly monster! Yes. Indeed. Other names for this condition are: worrywort, spoil sport, medeler, nosey, controlling, over-analytical, and uptight. I have never really perceived myself as any of those things, but I do identify with the adorable but easily worried purple monster who is quite fond of triangles.

I understand having an imagination and foresight that can get you in trouble. I understand trying to think about one thing that's happy but being lead into scary-ville for no apparent reason. I worry about friends and family, about money and the future, about health and the economy, I have even caught myself worrying about if I could die from head-trauma if I take a corner too fast. I am a worrier.

In some ways worrying prepares me for unknown circumstance, but those are pretty few and far between. Most often all that worry does is cause me to stress over possibilities that haven't happened yet, giving the unknown future more power over my present circumstances than I have. Worry is at its core, simply fear of the dark. Now I see very well in the dark and can discern many things, but those noises that go bump in the night (the water heater, the pipes, the wind, the slow movement of the earth's natural course) suddenly have great power when they have no boundary and no origin. When we were little we thought that goliath (who was 10ft tall) was big enough to take on godzilla if he wanted to. But that assumption only lasted as long as we didn't know that 10ft was only to the average ceiling. For us 10ft had no real boundary or form, it was just scary and big! Worry is the same way. We can place a lable on our fears, but with worry it has no boundary and so our fear is its potential. We fear people for their capacity to hurt us (even in love), we fear a plane's potential to fall straight out of the sky, we fear the deadly virus and germs that are everywhere for what they could potentially infect us with (possibly even kill us), yet we worriers never stop to think about our own potential matching the unknown. We don't think about our own potential because we assume our own limitations. 

The greatest power secrets (or the unknown) have is in the darkness. When we do not know and cannot see the limitations. Satan's lies have power that comes from being formed in darkness. We don't understand it so we fear it to be true. With such a world we live in, we give these lies and worries such AMAZING power. Ask a CEO how his company works and he doesn't really know; ask a stock trader what controls the market and he can't really explain it; ask a politician how the people are active in their leadership and they don't really know. These systems have power because we give them power. If knowledge is power then the unknown is the ultimate evil force in the universe.
And yet many choose to serve an unknown God with no limits, boundaries, or any form of objective knowledge.

Why wouldn't us worriers be scared silly?

But here is where I have the advantage over telly: faith gives me the ability to know that my God is bigger than all other unknowns! I can know that while Godzilla can topple buildings, my God created universes and subatomic particles alike. That gives me courage most days; and on the days when that doesn't quite take the fear away, I have learned to take the power back for myself by turning on the lights. If I don't know about something, I research it, ask about it, or plainly state the truth that I already know. Often times I will line up the lies and the truth next to each other on a piece of paper just so I can see and KNOW the power they have over me and the power I have taken back.

Sometimes I have worry-parties still. Sometimes I can't see through the darkness and I need someone to turn on the light for me. I am thankful for those people that do. I am also thankful that I can speak the truth and claim the power God has given me.

So one day at a time I will reclaim that power over Doubt, over anger, over jealousy, and over anxiety.
Thank you God for my days! And thank you for giving them to me one at at time.